I'm sick of taking initiative.I'm not going to interfere in another's life or bother too much anymore.

Because you will get sick of it.

You might think I'm just saying, but I'm going to start trying.

Like planning a gathering, taking initiative to contact/talk to my friends ..it's just so damn freaking difficult.

I'm not the girl who will go around, asking people "hows life" in the cyber world .

Cause no one really cares about how am I living.

AND

I'm going start standing up for myself (even if I'm short ..)

because I have been hiding behide for freaking 15 years

I got bullied,ignored, laughed or mocked , So i have to put a stop.

I hate it,when others say that my sisters are like this and that as if they had committed a crime. you just have to look at yourself,and tell me "how about you". They are nicer than you thought.

Sometime,I don't get what I deserve but I just closed one eye.

I just want to remain positive and positive. Ironically, there are times whereby my mind are full or negative & rubbish thoughts.(its hard to explain )

I'm not materialism. I think that I'm just a typical girl / friend that you can in a street .

I can remain being a nice friend if you ever need me.

"I’ve never understood how someone can leave something they’ve loved and been a part of for so long behind so quickly.Maybe It just goes to show they never actually genuinely cared. "